Stupid old cliché to follow; but you first have to admit you have a problem and ask for help. Congratulations for taking the first step. I too have known your pain. I know you will see it through. Just admitting your situation helps ease your mind. Keep the faith, cherish your family, love your wife and together you will make it through. If you truly have a wife second to none travel the road hand in hand. Don’t lead the way and expect to be followed, together is stronger.
Hang in there
Chuck