Brent, I completely know how you feel. I lost my grandmother to cancer in 98 and it still pains me to this day. It was just last week when I was visiting my mother and she gave me my baby blanket that my grandmother made that I was hit with a ton of emotions and memories. I think of her all the time and wish there were more people like her.
I will see you in vherf. Keep your chin up, we're all here for you.