i want to start off by saying that i went back and forth a long time about posting this and decided for it not because i want anyone to feel bad for me (im actually a really quiet person and dont like a lot of attention, and not even some of my closest friends knew anything that was going on in my life because i kept it to myself) but because hopefully this will help some of you reading this.
This past month and a half has been basicly a living nightmare for me. About a year and a half ago my uncle and his best friend drown while on vacation in florida and ever since then my grandmother went into a downward spiral. Well about 3 weeks ago she passed away. I know it sounds horrible but it was a relief because every day was a constant battle and it was good to see her at peace.
Also about 5 months ago my mother was having stomach pains and after a month of different testing it was found that she had stage IV pancreatic cancer. My mother was the kind of selfless person that when she found out she wasnt worried at all about herself she just didnt know how she was going to break the news to me and my sister. You have no idea how hard it is hearing a family member telling you that they wish they would be able to watch you grow up but they were so sorry they wont be able to be there for you in the future. From that point on everything progressed so quick it was unbelievable. My mother passed away on Aug. 14th at 54 years old only 4 months after her diagnosis and just one week after my grandmother passed.
Im writing this to tell you guys that you need to apreciate the people in your life today because tomorrow they may not be there. There are a lot of things i wish i would have done a lot sooner and a lot of things i could have said but didnt. You never think things like this will ever happen to you but you need to make the most of every day and spend as much time with the people important to you as you can.
Sorry for the wall of text guys its just good to vent and ive been away from the forums for a while but it feels to be back and to have some sort of normalcy back in my life